In some of the times during which I was much younger than I have been now I sometimes went about thinking of the idea that I can change the world. But what’s good about how I did it is because I couldn’t see any way it could be any good for me to go to try to do it myself and since I didn’t want to get help doing it, it made sense to just go ahead and forget about it and let other people go on to do the change the world idea.

Only the bad thing about what happened from there til now is when I look at the people doing the change the world idea I mostly can see them all falling so short of doing what they set out to go out and about to go do. And should I decide to be honest with you for a while, I might have to tell you about that it’s something to make me sad when I go thinking through all of them giving up their dream.

Also it can be something to make me almost so very angry when finding out how they messed up the whole idea of changing the world they were supposed to go and do. But  another last thing I want to tell you about for now is the shame I get during when I’m so angry at the people while they go messing up on their idea of changing the world.

But shouldn’t they be the ones to go grab the shame and wear it proudly for all their failed attempts at all their big change-the-world ideas? Aren’t they all the ones who should go to come apologize over to me because they know for well that I did my part?

At and in the end it pains me to tell you about that it’s so disappointing when I think to realize how so many people can keep on going to let us down no matter how much I do my part to make them have to change the world.

It’s very disappointing. I’m very disappointed.

C’est la vie.